Dealing with Dukkha
This post came is response to a question that came in from one of my other posts, ‘Why Does Meditation Make Me Angry’– which, without fail, is, along with another similar post, ‘Why Does Meditation Make me Cry’ are the most read posts, of the 150 posts on my blog. Each day they sit at the top of the daily read statistics, which says a lot about how people are responding to meditation, and what meditation is revealing to them about their inner environment.
So this post relates to that – and the question was:
“This is just what I needed. Thank you. I try to make meditation into a daily practice but sometimes I find it really difficult because when you experience a certain level of calmness the first few times you tend to have your expectations up that it will continue to get better and better in a smooth line but that is not the case. Do you think I should just push through even though it makes me feel worse sometimes?”
And my reply?
Absolutely you should push through. Never stop.
One of the Buddha’s core teachings was, to put it simply, ‘life is dukkha’ (dukkha loosely meaning ‘imperfect and constantly changing thereby causing suffering).
Most people find this a bit depressing – to be told that life is suffering. But the Buddha was telling us something very important. And that is, the more you ACCEPT the imperfections of life, and change and suffering, the less stressful dukkha becomes. That is, suffering loses its sting.
It sounds strange doesn’t it? And hard to accept. But if you look into suffering or all kinds, whether it’s physical pain or depression or anxiety, most of the suffering component comes from our futile attempts to deny it is happening, and resist it. Or, in your case, avoid it, by only meditating when you feel calm. This avoidance of the suffering of life, of our habit of flinching around pain, or denying we’re depressed only makes suffering worse when it comes.
So my point is, one of the core lessons of meditation is to create the ability to do the opposite of what we’re used to doing in the face of suffering – rather than run from it, or flinch or fear it, as we’re conditioned to do – in meditation we practice accepting it as simply another aspect of life’s natural friction – it’s normal! Just as periods of calm and happiness are normal. It’s just the way of things. And things always change.
And if we can relax INTO what annoys us, or pains us – then, as I said, suffering loses its sting.
So the first step is to let go of words like ‘worse’ or ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ – because these value judgments are a part of our resistance to what are, after all, simply different textures of life.
And these textures of living are always changing.
Pleasure turns to pain, pain turns to pleasure. Happiness turns to misery, and misery turns back into happiness. Happiness, pain, pleasure, misery – even these words inflame us. Far better to accept that the different states of comfort and discomfort in life as waves of life, in all different colors and textures, changing constantly. And you are like a surfer, riding those waves.
Thank you for your question.